Soon after her first puzzled encounter with feminist ideas, Ruth Surgal
had one of those Ah or Click experiences,
when suddenly, womens liberation made perfect sense. Many women
had such experiences in the 1960s and 1970s. For Ruth
it was listening to a 1969 radio interview with Marlene Dixon, a University
of Chicago professor who had been fired because of her outspoken support
of the womens liberation movement.
Active
in the anti-war movement, Surgal felt the need to do something
different.
Jane
began as a referral service, but for Surgal and the others, dealing
with the actual male abortionists was a very frustrating experience.
There were blindfolds, high prices, secret motel rooms and the nagging
feeling that women needed to be in control over the process. Finally
the Service settled on one abortionist who seemed more flexible
than the rest. Claiming to be a physician, he became known as Mike.
Although no one questioned his technical expertise as an abortionist,
it was eventually learned that Mike really wasnt a doctor.
When
Surgal and Jody Parsons first negotiated with him:
We
both went down to talk to him, because he wouldnt talk to
both of us at the same time because three made a conspiracy. So
first I went to talk to him, and Iwhatever we talked about,
and then Jody went to talk to him and she got him to come down
in money and she was much tougher then I was. But they got to
be really, really close friends and they were friends for years
afterwards.
According
to Ruth, Mike was a very complicated person:
He
was a con man. I mean he truly, truly, truly was a con man. Back
in the days of the counseling service I thought he was the sexiest
man I ever met. It was like I could hardly stand it, I thought
he wasit was just impossible. You know, thats how
I felt. I just thought the sexiest person. He was just exuding
it ... He was this very odd combination, and I think he had just
never met anybody quite like Jody certainly, there just arent
many people quite like Jody, and like the group as a whole.
He
grew up in a very tough neighborhood where most of his friends
were in prison or dead. So, his expectation was that you had
to take care of yourself because if you didnt someone would
knock you out, and you had to watch your back all the time.
But
he thought I was a traitor so to speak, a stool pigeon because
I was the person who insisted that we had to let everybody know
that he wasnt a real doctor. And he was furious and he yelled
and screamed and was just beside himself and I felt bad. Then
he went back to California and called me long distance and apologized.
He was very sorry. He was a very complicated person. Very complicated.
While
working for Jane, Mike taught people his abortion techniques. As
people learned what he knew, the blindfolds began coming off and
the prices dropped. The people he trained, trained others, so that
after his departure, Jane became an all-woman service.
Janes
medical techniques were very good, but Jane always felt that technical
knowledge wasnt enough. The women seeking the abortions needed
to feel that they were part of the process. Although the modern
term empowerment has become something of a threadbare
politicians cliche, Jane actually took the idea seriously.
Counselors
and intake personnel learned to listen to Janes clients carefully,
as what was NOT said was often as important as what WAS said. Women
were encouraged to talk about themselves and their lives. People
talked about womens liberation, about how women were expected
to be sexy and desirable, but then were punished for becoming pregnant.
Women were encouraged to talk about their personal experiences
with children, pregnancy and abortion. Jane wanted to demystify
the abortion experience so that people could make intelligent decisions
about what to do.
Surgal
explains:
It
was one of the things we talked about a lot that we were not doing
something TO this woman, we were doing something WITH this woman
and she was as much a part of it, and part of the process as we
were. So that we would talk about how we relied on them if we
got busted. You know we would explain that they were not doing
anything illegal. We were doing something illegal. But we need
their help, and you know dont talk about it, and we have
to be quiet, and it might be a terrible way to do things but this
is what we have to do. And people were pretty good.
Jane
was a diverse group of people and styles varied:
Some
people were much more political and could get really good political
discussions going. Others would just kinda sit, and thered
be friendly conversations. You know it just really depended on
who it was. I mean people were helpful to each other by and large.
Not necessarily in really big ways. One person would have an abortion
and then the next person would, just like when you go to the dentist,[and
say things like] oh you know it wasnt that bad . People
were pretty good. But not always. ... I think because we set it
up in such a comfortable way, and we tried so hard to be respectful.
I
think that that kind of attitude of respect and egalitarian or
equality or whatever the word is, helps people be together, and
bonds people. You know, I think mostly people recognized real
support, you know, and the kind of warmth and acceptance, whatever
it is that comes from that sorta approach and a way ofI
suppose people have different styles, I made myself so present,
that was my way of doing it, that I, you know, to make people
comfortable I d make myself present in a, at least this
is what I think I did, in a way that was strong and vulnerable
at the same time.
Jane
tried to find places for volunteers based on their skills and abilities.
Surgal herself did not feel confident enough to perform the actual
abortion procedure:
I
think in the beginning I was curious about the process. But because
I am so strongly a helping person there was somebody whos
hand had to be held and there I was to do it.....
Then
actually helping a little bit, or actually trying to do abortions,
I really had a lot of trouble with that. I could do the first
part. I could dilate the cervix, I could give the shot, but I
couldnt do that abortion. I could do it now. But I couldnt
do it then. And now I could do it because I trust my hands. And
then I didnt. And I trust them now because of doing pottery.
Like I couldnt make pie crusts before and now I can.
I
was afraid I would hurt somebody. If I couldnt see what
my hands were doing, how did I know? As long as I could see what
I was doing I was Ok, but once I had to go inside and I couldnt
see anymore, I had no confidence that I would do it right.
Surgal
decided that her talents would better serve the group as "Big
Jane", the term that was used to describe the person who actually
assigned abortion counselors, scheduled abortions and was the members
main source of information. She explains:
I
took the job of Big Jane, that was the only other seriously powerful
position. And I did it. And now, I was fortunate, or I should
say the group was fortunate. There was a person who was doing
Big Jane and she was not doing a very good job, and she was very
good at doing abortions. So I said all right were switching,
Im going do this and youre going do that, and I could
do that because I had the power in the group to do it. Although
everybody was angry, but they wouldnt tell me about it because
I had the power and I could do it. You know how that goes.
Decision
making within Jane could be difficult. Conditions were stressful
because of the life and death nature of the work they were doing,
the necessity for secrecy and the knowledge that they had to focus
on the work because so many desperate women depended on them. People
had a tendency to suppress open disagreement to keep the group united
and task oriented. Naturally, this created its own problems, but
when 7 Jane members were unexpectedly arrested and the very existence
of the group was threatened, people continued performing abortions,
even as disagreements about strategy intensified.
Surgal
especially remembers one struggle:
I
remember there was this one woman who was fierce, and extremely
powerful. She just wasnt in the leadership group. I dont
remember what we had this fight about, but it was certainly during
the arrest. She and I had a terrible argument right about something
we were going to do. But I won. And I knew I would because I can
be so fierce when I have to be. And so I out fierced her.
Jane
soon figured out the arrests were not part of an overall plan to
shut down the Abortion Counseling Service, but rather the actions
of an individual police commander. Ironically, some of Janes
clients came from police families and the overall attitude of the
usually repressive and controlling Mayor Richard J. Daley city administration
was to unofficially ignore Janes activities.
Not
long after the Roe vrs. Wade decision legalized abortion in January
of 1973, the case against the Abortion 7 was quietly
dropped. Some Jane members wanted to go on, believing that legalization
did not address the issues of cost and the quality of care. Others
were burned out, or feared that because abortion was now legally
profitable, the medical establishment would have them prosecuted
for practicing medicine without a license.
Ruth
Surgal hoped that Janes extensive experience in performing
abortions would become a model:
I
was naïve, I thought we had learned in the counseling service
how to deliver services in a very respectful way that made it
so much easier on everybody, and particularly for the woman. We
could go out into the world and the medical world would take it
and everybody would then practice medicine differently. Well,
you know, of course wasnt going to happen. I mean even in
abortion clinics it didnt happen, so, I was naïve.
Jane
closed its doors in the spring of 1973. The Abortion Counseling
Service existed in tumultuous times and no one who went through
Jane was unaffected by the intensity of the experience.
For
the people who I know, it was the single most intense period of
our life and when it stopped there was something missing. And
you couldnt find anything to do that carried quite that
energy for a long time. I mean, how often to get a chance to actually
do something thats not enormously complicated and is truly
helpful, you know., You can be helpful in lots of ways, but this
was really helpful because without us they wouldve been
in serious trouble. These were people who couldnt afford
to go to all the regular places, you know, for abortion. Or the
places they went to they would get hurt. So what we did was really
important. Doesnt happen very often in a lifetime. Or hardly
at all, you know that one gets a chance to do that.
It
would be all too easy to romanticize Jane, and make its members
larger than life. Ruth Surgal cautions against "overvalueing"
the Jane experience because,"It makes it outside of normal
experience, and it isnt outside of normal experience."
Jane
members decided they had a job to do and they did it. When the
job was over, Jane members moved on with their diverse lives.
Today
Ruth Surgal is still involved with social work and is an accomplished
potter. The hands that she feared were not steady enough to perform
actual abortions, today shape clay into exquisitely subtle forms.
She
is an active member of the Herstory Website Project and patiently
continues to give interviews about her participation in Jane,
explaining how she feels about it now:
Its
only afterwards that you think about it. You know, thinking about
it now I think about that, how lucky I was to have had that experience.
But at the time it was just something you did, because you wanted
to. It wasnt a big deal. It didnt feel like, oh Im
doing this really important thing. It didnt feel like that
at all. It just was another job to do. Afterwards it felt important....
you know, and even though it was just this little tiny world important,
still it had this number of women and it was a helpful thing to
do.